a story of june 15th.
so i gave myself and imaginary deadline of june 15th.
on june 15th we were going to get a phone call and bdog would get his dream job, we would find out where we would be moving, and it was going to be a great day.
instead on june 15th, we got several phone solicitations, i woke up with puffy peepers, my mother ended up in the emergency room, (she is doing well, and is home), and we got yelled at a drive up window, by an order taker who didn't listen to us order, and when our order ended up wrong, he came to the window and yelled at us.
it was one hit after another.
then we went to the store. ms. bella found a toy grocery cart and needed it. badly. we bought it.
then we took her up to see my mom at her house. bella played hard with her little grocery cart, she ran as fast as she could with it, shopped for groceries in the trees, and as the wind blew, she laughed and told me she loved the wind. even though it almost blew her cart away.
this night ended up at 11:00 p.m. having homemade smoothies, pretzels, and a little bit of junk food, watching an episode of our favorite television show on hulu.
and right now, i hear my favorite sound of the summer, crickets and sprinklers.
so what i learned on june 15th. no more imaginary deadlines. i just need to enjoy living, dream job or not.
"That was rough.... Thing to do now is try and forget it.... I guess I don't quite mean that. It's not a thing you can forget. Maybe not even a thing you want to forget.... Life's like that sometimes... Now and then for no good reason a man can figure out, life will just haul off and knock him flat, slam him agin' the ground so hard it seems like all his insides is busted. But it's not all like that. A lot of it's mighty fine, and you can't afford to waste the good part frettin' about the bad. That makes it all bad.... Sure, I know - sayin' it's one thing and feelin' it's another. But I'll tell you a trick that's sometimes a big help. When you start lookin' around for something good to take the place of the bad, as a general rule you can find it. ~From the movie Old Yeller